Category Archives: Denial

The Gift Of Desperation II

44 years ago The only thing that mattered was Not Drinking Today. One second. One minute. One hour. One day at a time. No alcohol. No drugs. Every morning, I’d say, “Please, let me stay sober today.” Each night, it … Continue reading

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The Gift Of Desperation

Am I going to have to fall apart And put myself back together in Order to love Again? Yes It’s been a long time, More than a decade, Such a long time. I’d sit and think, “I’ve Used up every … Continue reading

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I Have To Say No

I have always been a yes man. Whatever you want…whatever you need…if I can give it, get it, work it out, it’s yours. I’ve always been this way. I’ve got two dollars to my name, I’ll figure out a way … Continue reading

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No Excuses

Thanksgiving was my cheat day. I have been intermittent fasting for approximately 7 months and haven’t felt like using the alloted permission to glut. I guess I was waiting till yesterday to let it all hang out. I guess I … Continue reading

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My Side Of The Street

It’s up to me. Keeping it clean And I haven’t done a very good job of it. Back in the day, I used to say, “Not hurtin’ no one but me.” Bullshit. And it’s bullshit today. Only difference is… I … Continue reading

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Just My ‘Magination

So the Costa Rica flight is delayed almost three hours. Seems like the airline had to drum up a crew on a moment’s notice. I’d like to know how that happened. I booked this flight in June because the powers … Continue reading

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Airplane Mode

I made my flight this morning. The airline app said I had no reservation, said nothing was confirmed. The app didn’t know what it was talking about. I showed up at the terminal and clicked on to all of my … Continue reading

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Rain Is Falling

And the apple tastes so sweet. I’ll stay in the car. No one is crying The departure of the sun Nor the chill to come. Workers Union strike Barely makes the nightly news So hard speaking up.

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Wish Me Luck

I have a ticket to Costa Rica. I am supposed to fly there in one week. I told my friend I had enough money for the trip. That’s not quite true. Not yet. I still have 7, almost 8 days … Continue reading

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No Matter What

It never fails. I make up my mind to “get things done” and trouble starts blowing up my phone. I know I’m not unique. I have heard this same story from a great many friends frustrated with their attempts to … Continue reading

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