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About joefingas

I am a songwriter, poet, blues singer, and a boogie woogie piano player. I have a grandson but I have no children of my own. All my women have wised up and left me. I was a bum, a wino, a drug/alcohol counselor, a prevention/intervention specialist and a pretender. I have no more time to pretend.

I Have No Enemies Today

I saw him a few months ago. He was walking down an isle at Walmart. At first, I wasn’t sure it was him because of his slow, shuffling gait. “That’s not the way he walks,” I thought. His gray hair … Continue reading

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The Gift Of Desperation III

Last night, I accepted full responsibility for the consequences of my financial decisions. Past, present and future. My girl was counting on me for some cash. She was counting on me because I told her she could, I told her … Continue reading

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Miss You

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One Hand Clapping

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The Gift Of Desperation II

44 years ago The only thing that mattered was Not Drinking Today. One second. One minute. One hour. One day at a time. No alcohol. No drugs. Every morning, I’d say, “Please, let me stay sober today.” Each night, it … Continue reading

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The Gift Of Desperation

Am I going to have to fall apart And put myself back together in Order to love Again? Yes It’s been a long time, More than a decade, Such a long time. I’d sit and think, “I’ve Used up every … Continue reading

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The Most Wonderful Time of the Year

The hunt for money takes up a lot of time. I had a good streak of not having to worry about having enough. I liked it. Having extra. I liked it, a lot. So much it made me forget about … Continue reading

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Broken Chain of Custody

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I Have To Say No

I have always been a yes man. Whatever you want…whatever you need…if I can give it, get it, work it out, it’s yours. I’ve always been this way. I’ve got two dollars to my name, I’ll figure out a way … Continue reading

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No Excuses

Thanksgiving was my cheat day. I have been intermittent fasting for approximately 7 months and haven’t felt like using the alloted permission to glut. I guess I was waiting till yesterday to let it all hang out. I guess I … Continue reading

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