Monthly Archives: January 2015

No Matter What

I picked up Joey at his friend’s house and turned east onto the highway. It was 7 in the morning and the sun was rising over the oil change place blasting its radiance full force through my smudgy windshield into … Continue reading

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Spoiler Alert

I thought I was the character in a John Grisham novel. Y’know the plot: Underdog stumbles onto greedy corporation’s chickenshit plan to crush him then spends rest of book blocking moves and thwarting attempts. I found out about this particular … Continue reading

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On The Courthouse Steps

I’m sitting on the throne next to the tub thinking these next couple of days might be my last in this house. The mortgage company’s disregarding the judge’s dismissal of foreclosure. I’m gonna holler even though I haven’t made a … Continue reading

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Second That

I think Joey’s dad’s okay. He calls and talks to his boy everyday. And, since Joey puts all personal conversations on speaker, I am privy to both sides of their conversation. And my take is this young man’s okay. He’s … Continue reading

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Before She Decides She’s No Longer My Girl

She tells me she’s lonely. She says,”I miss you. When are you coming to visit?” Her sister asks, “Why aren’t you here with her?” I’m happy my girl wants me with her but the work is here. The work is … Continue reading

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And, If I Had Said Yes Right Away, I Would’ve Had A Gig In March

I check my cell and see someone has left a text message. It’s from the owner of a local sushi place and it says, “I’m booking for the season can you do Saturdays?” I want to say yes immediately but … Continue reading

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Time Will Tell

It has just started to rain. Early morning, before sunrise, rain. Thunder. Lightning. I think about hiding under my blanket but I’ve been sleeping too much. Sleeping when I’m not tired. Sleeping to avoid reality. Hide from the drama of … Continue reading

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