I Guess It’s Up To Me

I am tired right now. Tired and I have a very light gig schedule this weekend. It has been a weird summer for music. The holes in the schedule have been gaping.

I’m used to 10-12 shows a week from March through August but it’s never been more than 6 a week this year. And this weekend, only 2 are booked.

I blame myself. I’ve depended on word of mouth for my solo work and the band’s de-facto ‘manager'(the bass player) to book the gigs when I should’ve been takin’ a more active part in promotion.

I have the personality, knack and people skills for the job but I’ve been lazy. I wanted other folks to talk to the venues. And,after all their talk, especially the bass player’s, all we get is a couple of meatless bones thrown at us once or twice a week, once or twice a month.

This is not acceptable to me now that I have a family to support. Well, a woman to whom I send money every week. She has 3 kids, several sisters, brothers and a mother. I’ve adopted them just like I’ve adopted Joey. They are my family and I’ve made it my mission to provide for every one of them.
Every single one.

That’s why 2-6 gigs a week is not acceptable.

I’ve never felt this way before but…


About joefingas

I am a songwriter, poet, blues singer, and a boogie woogie piano player. I have a grandson but I have no children of my own. All my women have wised up and left me. I was a bum, a wino, a drug/alcohol counselor, a prevention/intervention specialist and a pretender. I have no more time to pretend.
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2 Responses to I Guess It’s Up To Me

  1. The Mom says:

    This makes my heart so happy.

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