I remember when I first came down w/ the writing bug. It hit me hard in the early 70’s. I took a creative writing class at Riverside City College and the professor, Don Chotro, said, ” Write down the very ‘thing’ you don’t want to write about…the very ‘thing’ that scares you the most and it will bring out the best in your writing.”
And I took his advice literally. I wrote down everything that scared me. I wrote down all of my secrets, all of my grudges and, everywhere I thought I fell short, I wrote it down.
I was drinkin’ a lot at the time and I wrote about that. I did some very bad things to people and I wrote about that. I felt remorse, regret and worthlessness. I wrote about that.
I probably wrote about a good time here or there but there weren’t many…good times, that is.
I don’t know the quality of my work other than it was honest. I spared no one…especially myself.
I’d like to get that back. That honesty. I’d like to be as fearless as I was when I was young…not quite a man.
I think it’s worth a shot.