I WANT IT I WANT IT I CAN’T HAVE IT

It’s not like I have anything of significance to post but that’s not the point. If I don’t do this, all I’ll do with this computer is check Facebook, gmail, Yahoo and, once in a while, google something. I have a life and, lately, it’s a life avoided. I’m in a mood. I’m almost 62 years old and I’m restless. I want something….Something different….But, not really…Not enough to do anything to get that Something Different.

That’s a lie. I’m working myself up to do something different. For instance, I’ve met this woman. A friend of a friend. We have been talking via Facebook for over a year and I keep promising to visit her in her country. In fact, I told her I was going to “fly down” the middle of this month. But, all that came of this plan (and I was sincere), was nothing but a last minute Facebook note to her saying I had to change my plans because I couldn’t afford the plane ticket much less the cost of the stay. I was truly sorry and I begged her to forgive me. She was disappointed and chewed me out thoroughly in two or three posts but, finally, told me “it’s okay. Maybe later.”

And I want to see her. To stand in the same room with her. Hug her. Kiss her cheek. Feel her breath. All I want is to know this woman. That’s all I want.

So, why do I insist on denying myself this simple pleasure?

To answer my question, I think, is the true purpose of this blog.

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About joefingas

I am a songwriter, poet, blues singer, and a boogie woogie piano player. I have a grandson but I have no children of my own. All my women have wised up and left me. I was a bum, a wino, a drug/alcohol counselor, a prevention/intervention specialist and a pretender. I have no more time to pretend.
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3 Responses to I WANT IT I WANT IT I CAN’T HAVE IT

  1. Must I read all your posts to know if you found the answer? Did you ever see her? I will visit again with or without your answer. Lovely to bop around here. You are an interesting person, an interesting writer. Take care now.

  2. By the way, I found you via Johanna Massey’s Sunday Blog visits where she mentioned you–http://johannamassey.com/2015/03/01/pop-in-sunday-blog-visits/#comment-210

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